The Healing Heart {Blog}

Step One: Forget Yourself.


Everything you ever knew about yourself can be shaped and molded into something beautiful. Think of life as a ball of clay and each moment, Each event shapes that ball of clay, Such as each choice you make impacts how you live.

From Chaos beauty is formed. Have you ever had that moment when in your life all seems to be falling apart, Darkness surrounds you and there is no where to turn. But at the last moment before pure destruction, You are hit with the most powerful calm you have felt, That folks is whats called a pure moment in time. when yourself and the world around you is in sync.

I had once experienced it when i was young, i experienced it alot back then, before i set out on my journey. As I recall it often happened when I was at wrestling matches. The adrenaline and raw power of being in a ring. with one goal, Out last your opponent. Often times a moment of calm came over my mind. And some ancient power infused itself with my soul, It was outstanding, Never before had i been so calm. It allowed me a focus I had never know before.

Until recently in my college years I had not experienced that feeling of calm. Nor the Power of Change that it yields, I had lost my light, my guiding path out of the darkness the past years, and fell into a Depression. It took an F5 tornado to throw me into that realm again. To continue my search for the light. To shatter the darkness. Its Strange how 15seconds. (Yep thats how long it lasted) Everything in your life is changed. Nothing is set in stone. We are fluid, ever changing, ever growing, ever learning.


Since then I've had more of an external look at my life and noticed there was a darkness so deep that surrounded it. The cause of the darkness is very much my own fault, Because I let it into my heart, where it grew and began to fester. After the tornado I was shook to the core. Changed for ever by the true raw power of nature. I call this major upset, a cornerstone. A place in my life where I have gained access to that power to change. And Changing I am, for what i Think is the better. I lost love, friends, and my self over the years. I have experienced the darkness of others, and the healing light of family and support of friends.

People have the power to change at any moment in time. The fight for change is often hard, and cuts deeply into the soul. But trust me friends it is well worth it. So step with me on this journey as we forget our former selves and forge us a new future. Lets step into the light together.

Ego non solivagus.~ You donot wander alone.

Beyond a shadow of A doubt.
It 10pm... Its kinda early in the night but i have to be up at 6am but i really wanted to do a post before bed. anyways here we go.


Doubt. Is a Nasty, vile creature. Its that thing that hides in the back of your head that whispers sweet nothings about failure, and how much you suck at the world. I honestly believe most people's issues stem from they dont have enough confidence. Instead of "No I cant" all the time. Just once tell doubt to shove it where the sun dont shine and jump into head first. (Providing its a responsible situation and blah blah blah)

Another Kind of doubt stems from the past. Also known as hindsight, If you're always looking to the past for answers then the present passes you by and you miss many opportunities and thats just a shame. God, or budda or whoever created that opportunity for YOU! and by either ignoring it or jsut not noticing it, is kinda a slap in the face.

I honestly have a saying it goes like this. " Take from the past, your experiences and learn from them, and grow. but you dont belong in the past you belong here and now, In this moment in this time." I can say that ive had alot of issues living in the past. You keep thinking what could of been, or how you would have done something different.

But its in the past and you know what unless your a time travelling wizard, You cant change it. So instead turn your gaze to the present, and the future. Of how to avoid such circumstances, But dont let fear of what might happen cripple you either. If your mind wanders to the past. Kinda give it a nod in honor. But DONT DWELL. I've literally found myself yelling that at myself at times. and Its great advise.

Once you do this. its your first step, You'll notice that the world isnt as dark as you once thought. and that if it weren't for the challenges, or events of the past. You wouldnt be the beautiful wonderful, human you are today.

I want to pose a challenge to all who are reading this. Make someone smile today. infact make everyone you meet today smile. By doing this we can make the world Smile together and that would be just fabulous.

"Not all who wander are lost" J.R.R Tolkien.